Today I spent $104 on clothes. Its crazy, but I love whatever I bought. Haha, Mum was right about the sale. I love the purple dress that I bought, thank god I got to shop today otherwise I would be wearing the same thing over and over again. I don't understand, I don't get it will people only treasure things when they lost it. I tried so hard, so hard for the past 2 months and you never wanted me back. Now you're like coming so close again. I don't want you anymore. On the another hand, somebody that I want so much thinks that I should get a better person. You really think poly have better guys for me? Or maybe its just your friends that you can't bear to give up for? I'm dying. Physically and mentally. (Smoke somemore lah Nicole!) This time, I'll probably stay at home till school start. I have to start reflecting on what I really want I guess. I'm sorry if I am going to be depressed again.